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Being Twenty-Something

May 31, 2009 Leave a comment
Here’s an old e-mail I got four years ago when I was still a twenty-something.  It’s for those who are still "on the calendar" and even for those already outside of it… 

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
And, on a final note: 
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back…
Share this with your twenty something friends…. maybe it will help someone feel like they aren’t alone in their state of confusion…..
Categories: Ideas and Philosophy


May 24, 2009 Leave a comment
I got this forwarded story today from my cousin Marian.  It’s particularly poignant for me, too.  It’s worth sharing.  May God bless us all! 

This will bring tears to your eyes, but it is such a wonderful truth.  Remember to try to do your very best for God.  He loves us so much and gives so much.  I hope and pray unbelievers will turn to Jesus, so they also can share in a wonder life when we all go home some day.
Jesus died for all of our sins and then rose from the dead on the third day to sit at the right hand of God the Father. If we believe in Him we will be saved.  
A man from Norfolk, VA called a local radio station to share this on Sept 11th, 2003, TWO YEARS AFTER THE TRAGEDIES OF 9/11/2001.
His name was Robert Matthews.. These are his words:
A few weeks before Sept. 11th, my wife and I found out we were going to have our first child.  She planned a trip out to California to visit her sister.  On our way to the airport, we prayed that God would grant my wife a safe trip and be with her.  Shortly after I said ‘amen,’ we both heard a loud pop and the car shook violently.  We had blown out a tire.  I replaced the tire as quickly as I could, but we still missed her flight.  Both very upset, we drove home.  I received a call from my father who was retired NYFD.  He asked what my wife’s flight number was, but I explained that we missed the flight…  My father informed me that her flight was the one that crashed into the southern tower.  I was too shocked to speak.  My father also had more news for me; he was going to help.  ‘This is not something I can’t just sit by for; I have to do something.’ 
I was concerned for his safety, of course, but more because he had never given his life to Christ.  After a brief debate, I knew his mind was made up.  Before he got off of the phone, he said, ‘take good care of my grandchild.  Those were the last words I ever heard my father say; he died while helping in the rescue effort. 
My joy that my prayer of safety for my wife had been answered quickly became anger.  I was angry at God, at my father, and at myself.  I had gone for nearly two years blaming God for taking my father away.  My son would never know his grandfather, my father had never accepted Christ, and I never got to say good-bye. 
Then something happened.  About two months ago, I was sitting at home with my wife and my son, when there was a knock on the door.  I looked at my wife, but I could tell she wasn’t expecting anyone. I opened the door to a couple with a small child.  The man looked at me and asked if my father’s name was Jake Matthews. I told him it was.  He quickly grabbed my hand and said, ‘I never got the chance to meet your father, but it is an honor to meet his son.’ 

He explained to me that his wife had worked in the World  Trade Center and  had been caught inside after the attack. She was pregnant and had been caught under debris.  He then explained that my father had been the one to find his wife and free her.  My eyes welled up with tears as I thought of my father giving his life for people like this.  He then said, ‘there is something else you need to know.’ 
His wife then told me that as my father worked to free her, she talked to him and led him to Christ.  I began sobbing at the news.  Now I know that when I get to Heaven, my father will be standing beside Jesus to welcome me, and that this family would be able to thank him themselves. 
When their baby boy was born, they named him Jacob Matthew, in honor of the man who gave his life so that a mother and baby could live. 
This story should help us to realize this: God is always in control.  We may not see the reason behind things, and we may never know this side of heaven, but God is ALWAYS in control.
Please take time to share this amazing story.  You may never know the impact  it may have on someone.  God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called. 
Give thanks to the Lord for He is good.  His love endures Forever..   Psalm 136:1
Categories: Religion

Everlasting Love

May 24, 2009 Leave a comment
Everlasting Love
The Company
I used to be so unhappy and so lonely
Love would come and never stay
But, that was yesterday
I was scared to admit I cared for someone
‘Cause my heart would always break
But, things have changed today
Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
We found an everlasting love
I’m glad we’ll go through life together
‘Cause when you are by my side
Tomorrow looks so bright
I’m sure we’ll stay in love forever
As for all our fears and doubt
They’re all behind us now
Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
This love is everlasting
Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
We found an everlasting love
Sharing my love with you as
We journey through life walking hand in hand
But our lifetime seems short for a love
That will last ’til the end of time
Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
This love is everlasting
Darling, did you know that something happened to us?
Right before the future and right after the past
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful thing it was?
Our hearts have found a love
(We found an everlasting love)
We found an everlasting love
Categories: Music

The Day of Goodbyes

May 22, 2009 Leave a comment
I hereby declare that as part of my Personal History, May 22 henceforth shall be known to me and celebrated as The Day of Goodbyes
May this be a bittersweet reminder to me that all good things come to an end, but it is also then that all new beginnings start. 
…The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised. (Job 1:21)
I’m grateful to God for the past at the same time hopeful and trusting in Him with the future. 
Here’s to the end of something good but to the beginning of a fresh new start. 

Jesus, King of Mercy, I trust in You! 
Categories: Personal

Goodbye GT and Makati

May 22, 2009 Leave a comment
Today has been one big emotional roller-coaster ride for two reasons.  Let me start with the easy ride first. 
Today was my last day to work in GT Tower, and in particular in Makati.  I’ve been working in Makati City for the last eight years, eleven months and three days, since my very first day in the company (June 19, 2000 – May 22, 2009).  Our first office was in the Makati Stock Exchange (MSE).  Sometime in 2003 my project transferred to the GT Tower building which was at the end of Ayala Avenue, right beside RCBC, and we’ve been based there until today. 

The MSE, where it all started
My particular project in the company is transferring to the Robinson’s Place Cybergate buildings.  Half the project already transferred last month.  I belong to the last batch to transfer, and today is our last day in Makati.  On Monday, May 25, I report to the Cybergate 2 (CG2) building. 
I have a couple of interesting memories in Makati, ranging from my early commuting days up to the present time.   Suffice it to say, the best and worst years of my personal and professional life to date is because of my stay in Makati.  This place will always have a good and colorful part of my personal history. 
GT Tower is where I got promoted to Senior Systems Analyst, title later renamed to Associate Manager.  I’ve seen myself hold key positions in five projects during my time here. 

GT Tower
I would particularly like to also mention that in the last three years of my stay in Makati, the neighboring RCBC Plaza has had a substantial contribution in my personal history. 

RCBC Plaza
Early on when my project transferred to GT Tower in 2003 I heard about a small chapel that existed in RCBC.  It was one day in July 2006 (I think) that I decided to visit it during lunch.  There was a Mass going on and so I did not stay long.  After that I found myself briefly visiting this chapel once in a while, if only to tell God of my current aches and pains for the day. 
One day I decided that this chapel would be a great place for me to pray my daily Rosary.  Everyday I would wait until the Mass was over and people would file out the chapel before going in and start my prayer.  Oftentimes I would come when the Mass was just about ending.  I told myself that I wasn’t here for the Mass, but then…  It would be interesting to actually attend a full Mass here.  No harm anyway in receiving Jesus. 
It started that way.  You can say that praying the Rosary eventually lead me to go to Mass at the RCBC Chapel every working day as well.  Now, the only reason I would not be there was when it was a Holiday, or there was a meeting I couldn’t avoid, or if I was sick (like when I contracted dengue in March 2008 and was hospitalized for a week).  My initial reason for going to Mass was to help myself grow in my faith.  Three years later and I still have a lot of growing up to do, but my reason now is to be close to Him, to His Real Presence in the Eucharist. 
I was delighted to know that the priests saying the Mass encouraged the faithful to go to Confession either before or after the celebration, and they would make themselves available for it for anyone that requested it.  This ended my trips to the Greenbelt chapel, for that was the only reason for me to go there.  Now I could go to Mass and receive Jesus everyday if I wanted to, and easily go to Confession as often as I wanted to do so. 

Greenbelt Chapel

RCBC Chapel
Praise God: Access to these two sacraments was now so convenient to me.  Praise God, indeed! 
I have been going to Mass almost every working day and going to Confession at least once a month every month in the RCBC Chapel since September 2006. 
Today, this practice has come to an end. 
I don’t care if CG2 cuts my trip going to work or coming home by half.  I don’t care either that everything from the food to the parking is cheap compared to their equivalents in Makati.  Nothing can ever possibly compare to the priceless gift of Jesus in the Mass. 
I, along with a colleague in the project who is, or now was, a regular communicant in the RCBC Chapel, will need to find a chapel close by to continue this wonderful practice. 
Before I left today I talked to Fr. Nesty, the regular priest who says Mass and hears Confessions – my Father-Confessor for the last three years – to thank him, Fr. Boy and Fr. Sagar for their dedication to ensure we have the chance to experience God daily during our lunch breaks. 
I pray that I find a nearby chapel with a daily Mass schedule, and hopefully also a new Father-Confessor who is just as wise and understanding as Fr. Nesty.  May Jesus bless them, and the RCBC organizers, for their truly wonderful ministry! 
Last but not the least, I visited the Starbucks café inside the RCBC Plaza.  After Mass almost everyday for the last two years I’ve been visiting them to get my regular fix of caffeine.  Smile  I almost always order only one thing: Venti-size Mocha Frappucino, blended whip cream.  The baristas have known me by name as a result of my near-daily visits, and I have become familiar with them too.  The coffee by itself is good.  What makes the product great is the sheer hospitality and friendliness of the staff, and today I could not stop thanking them for the two years that I have enjoyed their company, if only for a few minutes during lunch time to buy coffee.  Like me they are saddened that I had to go.  It was unfortunate that not all of them were there, so I could not personally relay my thanks to each one of them.  The most that I could do is request that they relay my thanks to everyone else.  As a parting gift for me they gave me my regular drink – for free! Open-mouthed  It was a pleasant surprise indeed, and it all the more made my heart warm up to them. 
For the last two years they have known me as “J.P.”  Before I left I left them my contact details – my full name which they now know, and my e-mail address and cell phone number.  I will so not mind hearing from them one of these days. 
And so ends my time in Makati. 
Dear God – Thank You so much for the last eight years, eleven months and three days in this place.  A lot of good has happened to enrich my life.  If it be Your will, may I someday find myself again working in Makati and enjoying once more the company of the friends I have left behind. 
I look to CG2 as a new chapter in my personal and professional life with hope that despite the challenges, I will gain new experiences that will enrich my life. 
Thank You, dear God, dear Jesus.  Thank You! 
Jesus, King of Mercy, I trust in You! 
Categories: Personal

Does Catholicism Revel In Suffering?

May 20, 2009 Leave a comment
This latest article from The Divine Mercy website was just too good to not share immediately:
Read it.
As in read it NOW.
Categories: Religion

My Blog

May 16, 2009 1 comment
There’s at least one person I know who still vists my blog every so often.
Karen — Thank you!  It’s nice to feel relevant. Smile  May Bry be joining you soon.  My prayers are with the both of you everyday.
Categories: Personal